since

my mothers eyes...they speak sadness...when you look right into them...you can see how old her soul is...

i have my mothers sad blue eyes.

something happened

i have been spending time thinking about whats going on with the social networking phenomenon that seems to have become the newest staple of popular culture. there is something to be said about being heard...and i dont mind accepting this, but there is also something to be said about letting go.

last night one of my closest friends from middle school asked me to be her facebook "friend" ... granted when we were 13 we had the entire world in common...but now...looking at her pictures she has married...had children...all of the above. would she and i be friends today? absolutley not...and not because i despise children...but because people in life grow apart. the marriage and kid path is not the path i am on...and sometimes i feel like married couples have a hard time accepting that i feel pretty good about being alone. i dont mind that i have left friends that i found earlier in life behind...there are people that you meet...that stay with you for however long you choose...and you learn lessons...in the findings of them and in the seperations from them...some you find examples of what not to be and hopefully from many... examples of what you should hope to become...

in college my girlfriends and i partied pretty seriously...but when i think back...we also studied...we read books. i had a novel class where i had to read 12 novels in one semester. 12. and i read them...and most of them i loved.

point being im not reading any books right now...other than facebook.

i work in print media

so obviously...im worried about losing my job.